What readers say
this is the most fucked up book i’ve ever read but i hung onto every word. i found myself rereading a page, three pages, ten pages, just going back, rereading it over again to make sure i absorbed all the information. let the shock hit me over and over again. slap me in the face. it was so hard not to. i wanted to know everything that happened, make sure i didn’t miss anything. reading this made me feel like Willem and Andy and Harold; trying to pry the information out of Jude, the stories of what happened in his past. i almost looked up what happened mid book, that’s how on edge i was. but somehow i managed to resist. i’m not one for trigger warnings but this book needs like 40 different ones, about everything imaginable. if you are an empath (i am) this book is going to be so hard to read. it’s about abuse and hurting and SH and SA and domestic assault. everything that Jude has gone through is absolutely terrible. he can never catch a break. just when you think it’s getting good it gets so bad again. i cried so much reading this book. i would recommend it but seriously i dont even know if its worth putting yourself through the torture of reading this, it made me so depressed and emotional. i feel like I know these characters; that they’re my friends and im going through life with them and learning about everything that made them who they were. this book is also like 800+ pages but honestly im glad that it was so long and the author didnt skip out on telling us any information. he told us everything we needed to know, nothing was left out. every question nagging in the back of your mind is answered. the ending was so sad. i sobbed. the twist- that shocking, horrible twist- left me speechless. i wanted to hug each and every character and just hold them. im glad i bought this book and didnt read this from the library, because even though it’s so long i already know that im going to read it again and again throughout my life. i highlighted things. i haven’t highlighte